"Bath of Blood "


I am doing what I always do.
I am writing you.
Except this is the last note from me you will receive

I was told this would get better
It is only worse
What am I supposed to believe?

I write ' I love you' in the corner
Explaining in the note will be all my pain I went through
It's me with these problems- not you.

You see writing this down no longer helps me
So I what I play over and over in my head
You will no longer have to worry if I am dead.

I cannot live for you anymore
So only death is left
I enter the bathroom
and I punch the mirror
my reflection is hate
my knuckles are bloody
but it felt great

I return and retreive the note
I sign my name and draw a heart
We are never together but never apart.

I will use the sharpest knife
The one I used before
I'm not afraid of dying
I'm afraid of living
and wondering why

Cutting myself again
I fill the tub half full of water
I whisper "I will win"
I watch the blood drip
nothing could be better
as the water turns red
I think of all the memories
full of pain in my head
It is time to slit my throat
I will be dead

It is only a soul flood
BATH OF BLOOD